Don't mean it...

Sorry for that attitude... I'm not that sensitive to your feelings... I don't expect you will behave like that... I thought you'll not be affected for what i've done or be mad... But i guess it's a big deal now... Well, sorry.. I'm not perfect and still commit mistakes - many mistakes... hmmm.. well, i think i've done my part of saying sorry and asking for forgiveness... If you'll not accept it - It's up to you... I'll just let things pass by... don't be disturb or be affected by this kind of situation... Still, this day is a God's Blessing for me to enjoy it... At least, I learned a new lesson... Just ignore what you see in your environment - even if you just want to put a smile in her face...Cause people have different views on how to see things and accept a situation....Again, Sorry.. I don't mean to offend you... I thought it's ok... Sorry...:(

It feels BAD... Really Bad...:((

I hate headache...:(( waaaahhh... why am i feeling this almost everyday...:( i got an eye glasses already... but the pain still here... huhuhuhu... i want to bump my head on the wall...:( huhuhuhu....:(( i don't know what to do.. I want to sleep.. sleep.. sleep... so that i will not feel this pain...I thought the reason why i'm feeling this way is because of lack of sleep... but i guess it's not... I slept early yesterday... but when i woke up.. my head still aching..:(( I'm hoping that tomorrow it will be ok...:) please Lord...:) please... My head is not working properly - i can't think, I can't work... :(

happening...

It's been a week since the last time i posted an article...i have been busy doing my work... it's been a hectic week for me...:( But still i'm happy cause i finished all of them before the due date... A little revisions is the only thing that is left - as expected...;)

Yesterday we started practicing our presentation for the upcoming christmas party to be held at Vivere on December 11 at 5 pm. We will be having a masquerade dance...:)) of course, the theme of our christmas party is masquerade...:) The steps of our dance are difficult...:( I admit, I'm not good at dancing that is why i have a hard time following the steps...:(( We still have almost 3 weeks to practice this thing...Hope we can do it perfectly...:) Actually I'm excited but nervous...This is the first time i'll dance an elegant type of dancing...hehehe... "ELEGANT"... Yah, super elegant...:)) Hope everything will be ok...:) Help us God...:)

Just a survey...:)

After a blogsurfing in the list of Agee's links. This survey got my attention...:) Let me see - answering this questions..:)

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Seven things that scare you:
1. Mumu (ghost..hehehe)
2. Animals that are mostly reptiles such as lizards,snakes,frog...
3. Lout
4. Death
5. Being alone
6. Cold and dark places
7. Going to a place that is beyond my knowledge

Seven things you like the most:
1. Persons that is close to my heart - family,meh meh,friends...
2. Accessories...
3. Music
4. Flowers especially Tulips and colorful roses
5. Holiday and day-off :))
6. violet, pink, yellow and baby blue
7. Huggable Stufftoys...:)

Seven important things in your bedroom:
1. Clothes
2. Bed,pillows and blanket
3. Memorabilia
4. My Mirror
5. Accessories
6. Personal items..:)
7. Cellphone and charger

Seven random facts about you:
1. I have memory gap...:))
2. I'am senstive.. super sensitive...
3. When I said I love you to someone - I mean it... i always do...:)
5. I easily cry... Even only in watching tragic movies..:)
6. I easily fell asleep especially when it's already 11 pm..:))
7. When I said to my self - wake up at a specific time...I always make it... but I'm too lazy to stand up and to start preparing for the new day...:))

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. Go to beautiful places in the PHILIPPINES...
2. To have a family of my own.. and to experience having a grandchildren..:)
3. To give my parents a time and money to go to different places they want...
4. To donate a big amount in my church or do a charity work...
5. Learn to drive perfectly...
6. To be the dream wife of my soon to be husband and a good mother...
7. To ride in an airplane...

Seven things you can do:
1. Make programs
2. Swim and play badminton
3. Do blogging
4. Clean the house, make laundry and to take care of a baby..:)
5. Cook food as in real food... :)) and a little of baking...
6. Acting
7. Organizing things...:)

Seven things you can't do:
1. sing and dance... waaahhhh..:(
2. playing any instruments (except maracas and triangle..:)))
3. wearing sexy dress...
4. typing in a correct finger position
5. having a physical contact with the animals that i'm scared of...
6. to speak and write another language except Filipino and English

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. Eyes
2. Personality
3. the way he loves and give respect to his parents and my parents as well...
4. his vision in life
5. his ambitions
6. the way he speak
7. cleanliness

Seven things you say the most:
1. I love you meh..:)
2. meh...
3. Ewwwweeee... kadiri...
4. revision? programs?
5. nyek..
6. hehehe...
7. hello...

Seven celeb crushes (whether local or foreign):
1. Christian Bautista.. hahaha..:*
2. Joe Cheng (it started with a kiss...)
3. Christian Bautista...
4. Vic Zhou (meteor garden...)
5. Christian Bautista..
6. Jayson Abalos...:)
7. Christian Bautista..

Seven people you want to see to take this quiz:
Anyone who wants to...:)

Why?

Why did I feel this way... everytime i can have a chance to be connnected again to this person...I want to grabbed that chance... It is like a chance of a life time...I hate this kind of feeling but everytime i see his face... every memories that we had are flashing back so fast at the back of my mind..:(( I hate it.. i hate this..:(( waaahhh..:(( i really want to forget about him... I thought i already did, but i was wrong...:(( I'm fighting for this feeling for so long - that is why i'm trying to let go of him... But i'm sure that i don't love him anymore and i just want to be his friend, only as his friend...:) Nothing else!!! that's for sure.. I'm contented with my meh meh...with what i have now...:) Haaayyy... maybe it is because he is my first love... as they say, first love never dies... He still in my heart, always...But meh meh don't worry i will not leave you..:) You are the one who completes me and show me the true meaning of love..:) I just want to be honest with my self - with my feelings... Maybe i'm feeling this way because i know that our break-up is not that good...:( I just want to put all things in proper...Just want to bring back our friendship and be there for him as his friend - like before..:)

***When lovers broke-up, it's hard to bring back the friendship and trust... - somehow true...

Monday Morning...

Thank's Lord for this beautiful day - peaceful weather , good mood and i'm not late in my work..:)

Yey!!! kahit na 7 am na ko nakaalis ng bahay papunta dito sa Sucat... I still made it... I arrived 9:22 am..:)) Praise God...:) I'm hoping to finish our testing today so that i can go back to FGU :)... not that i'm not happy here but I have a hard time travelling from Las Piñas to Sucat.... :( I enjoy every single second that i'm here in SUCAT...:) In addition to that, i met new friends in the NETWORK department kahit karamihan boys...:))

Wishing to go home at FGU soon.. I miss my friends there..:)

Monthsary?

It's the 11th of November and it's our Monthsary....

Huh? monthsary? - Old generation will surely say this one...:)) Monthsary is the celebration of the man and woman that are in a so called "relationship" - magkasintahan sa tagalog..:) , that is to celebrate monthly the day of your anniversary (example : anniversary = August 11 ; monthsary = Sept. 11 , Oct. 11, Nov 11...). Yup,in today's generation there are a lot of couple who celebrate monthsary. It's happy to think that after a month, you're still together...:) still holding on and still surviving in spite of hardships and trials that came along...:)

Celebration of monthsary does not mean to give expensive gifts, eating in a super class restaurants.... but just to appreciate both of your efforts and love in that month - that you are still in each other arms after the problems and misunderstandings in that month. It's happy to count the months that you are together, right? lalo na kapag ang tagal nyo na...:) haaaayyy... actually it's not a requirement to give importance in this kind of juncture, it's up to the lovers if they like celebrating it or not...:) For me, i'm thankful for each months that came along to test our relationship... kahit na minsan may problema but still we survive...:)


God Bless us...:)

Thinking....

I'm still here at RC Building in Sucat... We'll just continue our testing tomorrow. As of now, i'm thinking about him - "my MEH"... I'm just too worried about him... He is too busy...busy in working. Actually he stayed overnight at the Smart Tower in Makati...:(( Just to make his programs working...And it's already 5:30 pm and he is still in the office making programs...:(( oh, meh meh.. if only i can do something for you... to help you... to lessen your work... I know that God will not give you that work if you cannot do it..:) I know you can... :) Haaaayyy...:( I miss you meh...:) a kiss and hug for you... :* >:D<

God Bless US...:)

Busy Day...

Yah, I'm still here in Sucat. Yes! I'm still deployed... for how long?! no one knows... We will just starting the testing and debugging of some KEYING PROGRAMS that i handle in the new terminal. well, a busy busy "ME" will surely come at this point of the day... It's a long and busy day for me and for Cathy...:)) Cathy is the one who test the programs that i do including Ate Roscel when it comes to 1900 Keying programs (mabusisi ang mga ito...)...:)) They are the one who makes my day at the office miserable...:(( But they don't like doing it..:)) They only do that cause the managers are the one pressuring them to do that to me...:)) Yah.. it's business.. It's our work.. It's our so called life..:) But still, i'am happy doing it cause i feel so much satisfaction and happiness everytime i finished every single revision that they are requesting...:)) Pakiramdam ko may saysay ang buhay ko... kasi i solve their problems..:)) Glory to God cause they are patience...:D Yah,I must love doing my job even though sometimes it causes headaches and eyebugs - the work of a programmer is not complete without it..right fellow programmer? :)) If we love our work, surely our work will love us too...:) hehehe..:) Enjoy each single second, minute, hour and day that we are doing our work. Remember, it's one of the many blessings that God gave,giving and will give us...:)

***Imagine without your work.... that is the only time you can appreciate your JOB if you don't know how to appreciate it...:) God Bless..:D

Deploy...

After a year, here i am again - deploy in Sucat on a Monday. I'm deploy again to test my existing programs in a new terminal called "DISKLESS TERMINAL SERVICE". This kind of terminal is using a one server to store all the programs,data and information that the company is using and producing. In this case, it will be a big savings in terms of buying a hard drive that have a big capacity in each CPU (imagine how many CPU's are in the production area...just forget it..:))).

Now is different from my last year experience - i have friends here actually, many friends unlike before that everyone is unknown to me...:) It is awkward to work in here because of the travel time,the distance to my boarding house and the cost of money to just reach in here but the experience that awaits me is surely unique and unforgettable..:) Hope that i will not spend long work hours here...:) how i wish...:))

I'll surely miss FGU...:) Hope to finish my job as soon as possible..:D God Bless...:)

Haaaayyy....

Life has its ups and downs - it's like a roller coaster... Sometimes we feel so much happiness that all of us is dreaming of but there is also a time that we are in a situation that we want to cry and cry up to the point that our tears won't fall down anymore. Feeling pain in our heart is a nightmare - a heartaches for example.... :(( Life and love are connected because we feel love in our life... If this happens - oh! whatta feeling... :)) but if not... waaaahhhhh.... :(( forget about it...

How i wish everyday is a day full of love and happiness...:) How i wish...

Acquaintance...

In celebration of All Souls Day, a reunion of family members also occur. In this one day occasion we usually meet our far "kamag-anak"...:)

My family usually spend the All Souls Day in Cavite but when my grandfather (father side) died last 2 years ago we started spending it in Batangas.We usually visit my lola's,tita's and lolo's (mother side) grave before or after November 1...:) In this year All Souls Day, i met this boy in
my grandfather's grave. He is about 4 ft. tall but can you guess his age? My gosh, i'm shocked when they told that he is already 22 years old.. hahaha.. believe it...:))

Here is a picture of him with me and my cousin Angie.



Hope you had a great day last Nov 1...:)