Why?

Why did I feel this way... everytime i can have a chance to be connnected again to this person...I want to grabbed that chance... It is like a chance of a life time...I hate this kind of feeling but everytime i see his face... every memories that we had are flashing back so fast at the back of my mind..:(( I hate it.. i hate this..:(( waaahhh..:(( i really want to forget about him... I thought i already did, but i was wrong...:(( I'm fighting for this feeling for so long - that is why i'm trying to let go of him... But i'm sure that i don't love him anymore and i just want to be his friend, only as his friend...:) Nothing else!!! that's for sure.. I'm contented with my meh meh...with what i have now...:) Haaayyy... maybe it is because he is my first love... as they say, first love never dies... He still in my heart, always...But meh meh don't worry i will not leave you..:) You are the one who completes me and show me the true meaning of love..:) I just want to be honest with my self - with my feelings... Maybe i'm feeling this way because i know that our break-up is not that good...:( I just want to put all things in proper...Just want to bring back our friendship and be there for him as his friend - like before..:)

***When lovers broke-up, it's hard to bring back the friendship and trust... - somehow true...